Early this morning we had an eclipse of the moon. It was a full moon and the eclipse turned the moon red. I have been noticing the effects of the moon on my body and mood since September when I had a return of my panic attacks.I finally feel that I've conquered that with the help of meds and meditations. Lot's of meditation, relaxing music, plenty of spiritual reading, and soul searching.
Everything isenergy. Even us. So when I get anxious and nervous now, I try to remember that it's just energy. That what I'm feeling is the energy in me and all around me. I'm fine and everything is okay and as it should be. I take deep breaths and make sure I work on clearing my chakras everyday and do my meditations at night. I want to get off the meds, but my intuition is telling me to wait until I am whole. I don't feel whole quite yet. But, everyday things are getting better. I'm feeling a calmness and serenity in me. I'm feeling happier and more joyful everyday.
My fingers are itching to type and my mind is in overdrive again. It's scary to pour your heart out. But, I did get a good response on my last post. The response was on Facebook. I really really wish people would comment on the blog post itself also :)
Well, maybe I should explain why I am so upset with religion??
Religion specifically Christianity;
We are taught:
To be separate from the world; to not mix and mingle with the world; if you do you will be influenced by them for the badTo just listen to God's laws and if you don't you are a problemThat we are not to believe in rituals and spiritualism To listen to God and not ourselves; we just can't be trustedTo look down on people who are not us or who think and act differently (yes, I hear your protests that this is not so)That we are sinners who can never measure up Why is this bothering me so? It has caused me nothing but anxiety attacks and low self-esteemIt has inhibited me from further progressing; my mind has never …